Keep your insecurity in check – Review for Wreck-it Ralph 2

I loved Wreck-it Ralph coz he’s the bad guy. The bad guy who doesn’t mind being bad if it is the only way he can be good. But this time, he appears to evolve into a clingy cry-baby whom shies away from adventures. He has become the boring card-punching 9-5 worker that is afraid of challenges and any disruption to his mundane and stable life. At the meantime Penelope has instead, evolved into the opposite of Ralph, cracked out of her shell and became the real bad ass she has been all this while.

I liked the movie still, love all the quirks of the internet, how they animated and humanized internet as a living organism. Would have taken a lot of technical explanation to describe how the internet works, in words. I also learnt a thing or two about how spam works, and how all that spam could translate into real money. But ultimately someone’s gotta pay. Clicks only pay as much as the real money the sites are going to get from the merchant, and the merchants won’t continue investing in this gig unless it draws real sales. But hey, not a shabby way to earn some moolah, especially if you do have good content.

Oh and the biggest thing that I could resonate with in this film, is the clever wordplay of “insecurity”. The movie has depicted insecurity correctly as a virus that multiplies itself and creates a real havoc. The monster says out the most ridiculous words, describes the most unlikely scenarios amidst of its insecurity, and somehow deep inside, it believes that there might be a hint of truth in it’s prediction. There is no way to break this virus unless the cure came from the source itself. The person must believe that their assumptions are ridiculous and not worth pursuing, and by then only is it possible for the person to be free from the virus of insecurity.

Overall it was a very enjoyable movie, and I think that sight of so many smoky Ralph would be something to remind myself when a seed of insecurity and suspicion arise again in the future.

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Wreck-it Ralph – not as badass this time

I hope I’m not pushing myself too much….

Time flies.. and I am in the exact period when I found out that I have a lupus flare-up last year.

Life has been hectic, work has been stressful, and my eyes are getting more and more sore as a result. Sore eyes is normally a direct result of stress. This type of stress arises when I need to conduct courses. I have no issues conducting courses, but I often worry if people would learn during my sessions, and whether my sessions will achieve the intended objectives. I sworn off courses in October due to the high levels of stress caused by my own expectations. Ironically, I had to conduct another two day course again this week. I was supposed to have several colleagues assist me with the instruction of the course, since I prepare most of the materials. And yet, 2 out of the 4 instructors that promised to help did not turn up due to compelling reasons. So I had to be there both days.

After two days, I am glad it is over. I could not help but think: everyone has got their reasons why they fall apart.. What about me? It was inconsiderate for those people who just go ahead told me that they could not make it, and then did not offer to find any replacement. Just because I am still alive, does not mean I need to shoulder the world, no?

This is not the end yet. This is the nature of the job I am in. After you finished saving one fire, there are more fires waiting for you ahead. There will never be real peace of mind, until the day you quit. I have not decided to quit though. I still need the insurance for my lupus. Haha. I could pay for my medical expenses, but if someone else is paying for it, why not?

I am due for another check-up the week after next. I really need to manage my workload for the next two weeks so that my lupus do not flare-up again and cost me another one year of same heavy immunosuppressant dosage again. I am used to eating medication every day, but it would be good if I could taper down slightly.

Everyday is another day. Everyday is a day we fight for our survival. Gods be good and please do not let my good old friend flare-up again.

Lupus erythematosus in an old favourite drama series

cofI was watching this old favourite Japanese series made in 1999 (世纪末之诗,The Last Song), and chanced upon this oh-so-familiar name on the TV screen. Lupus! Back then I wondered what sickness was this episode referring to, it sounded like a vampire disease whereby exposure to sun can cause the little girl to faint or die. How strange is it to know that actually I was gonna get this disease fast forward 16 years later. 😅

The girl in that particular episode had serious photosensitivity issues that minor exposure could cause her lupus to flare. But I am not aware that a flare could kill someone in an hour’s time. But that was 16 years ago. Lupus could have been an extremely dangerous disease back then.

Ah, what a strange feeling.

San Junipero -Heaven is a place on earth

Ok. I am one of those people who thinks that every new thing gets better over time, like wine. I only started to watch Black Mirror this year, this episode – San Junipero from 2016 yesterday. AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT! Especially the songs. I have been a 80s fan for the longest time, and this movie totally re-ignited my fandom of the genre. You can find the playlist in Spotify under the name San Junipero – Black Mirror – Expanded Playlist. Or an alternative would be this youtube video:

Happy listening! 🙂